Blame goes deep and long
for your kind offering fruit
to a couple learning how to be.
At least, it’s original that sin.
Not banal repetitions whispered
in confessionals to tone-deaf men
missing each and every shade
of their own evils.
.
And you, what do you do?
As if slithering is a sin. You
don’t waste food, you find small
second-hand homes belonging
first to gophers or the like.
Your only trash, last year’s
skin, but we choose our hatreds,
create our demons, makes killing
easier with shovels, guns, or words.
You came close to killing the dog.
In fairness it was self-defense.
The sun called to you after a cool
nights sleep. The same for me and dog.
Mary Strong Jackson
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remaining decades will attach to wings
why spew words when one might pull them from better places
form their designs like molded art offered to listeners
many have seen, smelled, tasted what doesn’t work
time to bless the weariness of it all
kiss soldiers of every ilk, offer tea and quiche
paint a wall yellow
pick apples
why spew words when
one might use them
to caress
Mary Strong Jackson
August 2018
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there is a wren’s breath of silence
when a herd’s last hoof comes to rest
and dust drifts back to the ground
this same kind of quiet beckons a body
to become a bit of flotsam
filtering through trees in a sunbeam
to nearly escape in silence
and light is enough
to succeed is sublime
Mary Strong Jackson
Komorebi – Japanese word for sunlight filtering through the trees. The first symbol
is for tree, the second symbol means escape, and the third is for light or sun.
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Jayus
accidents happen
closest to home
one last orange blossom beer
and the stoop’s last step
twists your ankle
on what’s supposed to be the landing
turns out home is for sloppy punchlines
ill-timed quick jabs and sideway
glances that slip down the wrong-way
you forget the pause
the one that leaves the audience hanging
off start beginnings- you slept with who?
confused middles – maybe if you just bought a red convertible
quick endings – grandma died at the casino in Deadwood, South Dakota?
you can’t help but laugh
as the bad-timed baby
coos up at you with eyes like stars
Mary Strong Jackson
Jayus – Indonesian – A joke so poorly told and so unfunny that one cannot help but laugh
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3 Women
What was sad is now spring
wetlands waiting for her trees to leaf
What was joy wears the same pants,
orders the same lattes, wonders of her new
resistances with the same old curiosity
What continues to yearn for answers
becomes a weathered bow with strength
too slight to pull the feathered arrow
the one promising long flights
of possibilities but slipping
into a downward drift
of point over feather fall
Mary Strong Jackson
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something pulls collagen from the bones
frays the heart with too many rubbings
each shallow exhale wearies the body
expelling all we’ve got in the same old words
given only a finite number of times
to unmask declare affirm who we are
every word spoken is one word closer to our last
tread across our own and another’s senses
closer to one last shudder as we lay
“etherized upon a table”
sensing death’s hover we spew words
believing it natural to become old
when the fountain of youth exists
in the choices of our syllabic exhales
the sincere listening on the inhales
Mary Strong Jackson
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A child chooses a space where pine tree branches hang low, where no grass grows giving the bare ground beneath the tree a circular religious feel, perfect for the child to be unnoticed. Sometimes she settles inside a metal culvert under a road, a dry tunnel for her to sit where no one blames, no one intrudes. She places rocks in the shape of a heart, and other found objects, a rubber molded doll with a green Robin Hood hat and brown boots, a stack of sticks for a pretend fire. In these places, she wonders over thoughts and feelings. She raises her voice in song, and words formed from interpretations of her world all become a sort of prayer, sometimes solemn, sometimes joyous.
With no indulgences, blessings, or lessons needed, she consecrates the earth beneath a tree and in a metal culvert.
The child becomes a woman. She decides what is holy, and what she will make holy. If God, Jesus Christ, gods, or the blessed trinity exist, they exist in her, even if, or, because, she is a woman or neither, because it should not and does not matter.
She discovered the sacred between breathy ideas, curling leaves, deadly goodbyes,
times held in limbo, and the thoughts before the brush of paint meets the canvas whether it remains or is wiped off, before words mark a page whether they are erased or not.
With no indulgences, blessings, or lessons needed, she consecrates intentions and all else that keeps her alive.
The child grows old under the tree and in the culvert. She lies on her back now feeling the packed ground under her tree and when she rolls to her other side, she senses cool metal. Her toenails have grown into talons, yellowed and thick with lines of strata marking years. Her nails contain chalk, soot, earth, algae, scars from a once-smashed toe, they are rough-edged catching on blankets reminding her of loving someone those summers when she hoed the garden barefoot with callouses so thick she stood a quarter inch taller. Loving all those someone’s in a lifetime.
With no indulgences, blessings, or lessons needed, she consecrates layered strata.
Her children don’t see the sacred strata of her nails. They only hope the nurse can cut through the yellowed bird-like nails on her feet, and dispose of them, not seeing what’s to be revered, what sacred lines she’s layered into mighty talons to claw her way towards death.
The nurse cuts away at the claws. Soon more ways will be found to intrude, though, she understands, it is done with good intentions. She rolls over and returns to her place under the tree, and in the culvert; the spaces she made holy. She will die and meet her maker or meet nothing and either/or is okay with her. She will die knowing she found sacredness the only way possible for her, not through the trust of others, but through her own self, soul, being, and let it be known, it is good, holy, revered, and right.
P.S.
This is what she meant to express:
This is judging. She’ll work on that or maybe she won’t.
The above was written because the woman has been thinking about the word sacred. But she realized part of what wanted to be expressed is how pissed off she is at men who attain power and dominate women (and children and other men), men who are priests, movie executives, politicians, mass shooters, bosses, the guy next door, a husband, a father. She does not want or need any of you. Go away! She loves men (and women) who do not need to do these things. Men with insight and heart and confidence and kindness. She knows if women rise to power they will abuse it too, maybe in different ways, but still the chances are high. You asshole men know who you are and if you don’t, you’re even bigger assholes with no awareness of self or others, have you found nothing excluding money and power to venerate, revere, love? anything but yourselves? Stop it, just give up your power and money. What? You can’t? You are afraid of everything without it! Yes, you are. Crawl into your own vulnerable openings and eat shit.
Mary Strong Jackson
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